Since I’ve been a teenager, I performed in many concerts. I always had a band and we played all kinds of venues.
It’s always the same. I can’t eat before the show and I’m always so nervous. Today, it’s one of those days.
I’ve been band-less for more than a year. So this year, I decided to learn a new instrument. I’ve been playing the piano for 6 months now’ and I’m heading to my first recital. I’m going to play 1 song. Well, part of one song. I’ve reduced it by eliminating a lot of repeats.
So now I am here, nervous. This it will be my fist time that I play solo in front of a crowd. I’ve always performed with a band, either guitar or voice. I never played anything without any body else. That makes me even more nervous.
I always had a hard time playing by myself. I’ve been ask many time to showcase my talents but I always decline. I’ve always been too nervous by myself. All eyes on me. Everyone analysing all the notes I play. It may not be so, but that’s exactly how it feels. Just everyone judging me.
Today, I’m confronting this fear. After more than 30 years in front of a crowd, I think I should be ready to accomplish this all alone. I should be ready for it. I know the song very well. I am ready for this. (I’m trying to psych myself here) I am ready.
All day can do is perform and do what I know I can do.